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Unlucky Me

Unlucky Me
Most people said “You don’t know how to love” or sometimes they said “You don’t have a heart to love”....... But the truth is I’m just a normal girl and I’m not a robot....... I don’t have a boyfriend.... It doesn’t mean I don’t have a heart......

Love & Me....

Most people said “You don’t know how to love” or sometimes they said “You don’t have a heart to love”....... But the truth is I’m just a normal girl and I’m not a robot....... I don’t have a boyfriend.... It doesn’t mean I don’t have a heart......

Last Wednesday .... On the way back from office, the taxi driver asked..... “It’s a bit late now..... So are you just come back from office or are you just hangout with your boyfriend?”.......... I said....”Ha ha..... No lah..... I just worked a bit late....” And then she said..... “How old are you?” I answered....... And then she continued..... “So..... don’t you found someone yet?” She continued ......”I mean you work this late and when I ask are you hangout with your boyfriend and you replied you were working and explained so fast”.... And again she continued “You should find someone”..... And she asked.....”Why you don’t believe in love? Or You don’t find someone attractive to you?” I just smiled........ But in my mind I think you don’t know me sis..... You just don’t know me........

And the other taxi driver..... Yesterday, I went back to hospital from home and it was around 10 Pm and I was alone at home so... I just want to stay with my Sis and my mother so I choose to go back to hospital..... But I planned to buy some snack so I stopped near a cafe..... but the taxi driver thought I was on a date..... And told me like that again and Today my colleague told me I don’t have love..... Okie... Guys you just don’t know me......

Me and love is strange.......

Okie....... I’m a Human being so.... yes I do believe in love...... And how could I say..... I’m a girl..... So yeah..... I do have a type of heart who do love someone..... My “CRUSH” lah...... :D :D.....

But in my life..... I only have chance to be a side chick.... LoL.... Yeah.... A side chick..... Without even know that I am one..... Ha Ha.... Naive.... that damn Naive me...... and Rumors.... That damn Rumors...... Ugly that damn ugly..... :) :) :)

Story - 1

At the age of 19......... I was attending a class....... At that time I was Naive...... And also I’m a bit shy one...... So I don’t like to stay in groups...... So I was always alone....... But I do have friends but in this class is just a Saturday & Sunday classes..... So It’s just a part time class..... So in this class I’m alone........ One day I have got a friend...... A guy friend...... He introduced himself and..... So he became one of friend....... First that was good for me...... Because..... He is helpful and we help each other with our studies....... We support each other...... We became besties.......

But...... Everything started after 1 year of our friendship......... Because he proposed me.......... He said “I’m interested in you since I met you”...... At that time I’m a type of girl who doesn’t believe in love..... hee hee....... Even my first crush is at the age of 25 (Last Year)...... hee hee.... But I messed up and he left...... Now I heard he’s now even has a girlfriend..... Good for him though..... Anyway..... let me stick to my point...... Ok...... So I said let just be friends....... But he tried.... he tried and now we were friends for two years..... So I thought..... We were friends for two years.... And he also can stand with my attitudes so..... Then he became my boyfriend..... But not so long..... I just found out that he has other girl and I’m a side chick..... Or that girl is?? I’m not sure......

But one thing I will never forgot in my life is what he said that day...... “I so damn love you.... and I still do.... But do you know what she has?? She is gorgeous.... She doesn’t have attitudes like you..... Do you know what you did to me?? You don’t care about me..... You are childish..... You are annoying..... You are not spoiled like the other girl........ But you are worst..... You are different .... You are mean..... You only care about yourself.....” And many many many other damn reasons...... and then he choose that girl..... But that time..... I just realized that..... So i was that bad and just decide not to love someone...... As I also have a situation of when my father passed away........ I thought I can lose someone in every situation so I decided not to love someone....... So this is the second reason of not to fall for someone...... But that time I didn’t hurt..... Because..... I don’t love him..... I only have some kind of friendship love.... i guess..... Because.... I just met with some sort of really hurt situation just now...... Cuz someone broke my heart lah...... :( :’( ........ So this is my first side chick story.......

Story - 2

At the age of 25..... Oh I met with my first crush.... My first love.... My very first guy..... My very very first one who can broke my heart..... LoL..... But it was not that one-sided though...... So I was try to make him notice.... Lah.... So I’m not sure he do notice it or not..... But I’m very sure that I just made a new problems in my life.... Lah.... hee hee.....

Because of I tried so hard to make my crush notice, that one guy thought I’m trying to tell him.... LoL..... Think bro think..... how is that even possible..... But he is some sort of I don’t want to accept him type......

I just want a boyfriend who really cares about me..... Who really love me........ and who can stand with my attitudes...... And also I don’t want a rich one..... I just want someone who can stand beside me and try hard to get a life.... Not a money tree who can buy everything I wanted and stayed beside a pervert and who think every girl is gorgeous...... Yeah..... I know I’m FAT and UGLY..... But that guy is so damn NO NO for me.....

Do you know why? Why I hate him?? He thinks money is everything...... I mean.... He acts like he is rich..... He always said I can do everything for you..... What the hell man!!!! I can pay my own bills..... LoL..... I’m working grownup woman but he said that......... Okie I always said “Just find someone who is more interested in material not love.... LoL.... I’m not gold digger..... I’m different and I’m Ugly.... and I’m Fat but I for sure am don’t want that kind of man.....

Then I realized if I still doing the same thing I for sure am ended up with that idiot...... So I let go my first crush and I don’t wanna show it anymore and yeah..... It’s time to let go and wipe away that idiot........ With the help of my gay Friend hee hee ..... I told them I’ve a boyfriend..... And I showed my bestie photo and yep..... They buy it both of them....... So this is my love life...... I just like to stay normal and I don’t love someone until that idiot... that first crush..... LoL.....

And there is another rumor about me..... LoL.... A side chick..... Without doing anything...... I didn’t do anything and I also am a type of girl who doesn’t like to chat or use chat rooms...... So I don’t know how am I ended up as a side chick..... LoL.....

So how could I be in love with someone?? Who wanna love me that way.... LoL... No one will and believe me..... I’m that ugly..... LoL.....

This is my ugly truth about my love life......

So i just smiled and I just said maybe my other half is didn’t born yet...... :) :) :)

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